"Wherever God's love is, there is no FEAR, because God's perfect love drives out fear." 1 John 4:18a What a great promise I have in my Christ Jesus. I cannot express how fearful I am in this new journey of my life. Working basically 3 jobs so that I can pay bills and make ends meet and going 100 miles an hour every day. I am scared that I will fail, that I will fall. I am scared that others will see the real me... that I am not capable of sustaining all I do.

But what a great message yesterday at church. We need to face our fears, for fears ruin relationships. I do not want this fear of mine to ruin my relationships! No way! I want to protect my relationships... especially the ones that are so vulnerable to being struct down by my emotions... my kids and husband.

The antidote to fear is love. I will relish in God's love. I will seek him daily for wherever He is, there is no fear!

I woke up at 3am this morning in a panic about a leaky roof at the gym. Worried what the members will think of me for having a gym in such an old building. Worried that someone will see those bright orange buckets with water dripping in to them and judge me, as if it's my fault. But as I prayed about it, I was able to give that fear over to Him. This is not my issue... this is now in God's hands. He will provide. He will work it all out for me.

The question is, how do I live in God's love? A verse that stuck out to me yesterday and has been on my heart the past 24 hours is: "Surrender your heart to God, turn to him in prayer, and give up your sins - even those you do in secret. Then you won't be ashamed; you will be confident and fearless, your troubles will go away like water beneath a bridge, and your darkest night will be brighter than noon. Then you'll rest safe and secure, filled with hope and emptied of worry!" Job 11:13-18

What a great promise that is! I surrender my heart to Him and all that comes with it! I give all I do to Him... the gym, the personal training, the Beachbody coaching as well as every single thing. It is God's and he will bless and protect me in this journey. His love will drive out all my fears.